Archive for December, 2008

Catch Up

Sunday, December 21st, 2008

Ok, let’s see. I have several posts here from the past.. hmmm couple of months.

Work has been crazy the past couple of weeks. We got an “emergency” task assigned. Of course, you never no if it is a real emergency. There are varying degrees and the Business Analysts (BA), Project Managers (PM), and Custom Service Leaders (CSL) will all lie. This seemed like a real one, because of a threatened (or actual?) lawsuit. So, I put in 55-60 hours the week before last and then just undr 50 hours this week. Working last weekend too.

Everything seemed to come off ok, but I was exhausted. Those hours haven’t been familiar since I worked at Pizza Hut. I’m kind of pissed. This shit roles down hill and we had to cover for every link in the chain from CEO down. It’s hard to blame the client, who probably has are real grievance. It’s not too unexpected with the sudden and unexpected <20% reductions in staff that this might happen to time dependent projects.

We were promised an unnamed reward if the project completes successfully and on time for having to work the weekend. We’ll see. I saw the reward from the Enterprise 2.0 Death March last year. Nothing. Zip. Technical and Business Management teams have turn over since then. So, we’ll see.

My concern is that this becomes standard operating behavior. People in technical client facing positions usually get more compensation; from higher pay or on-call or on-call phones or higher pay for weekends, etc. If this keeps up I suspect most of the staff will vanish through transfers or other jobs.

This stuff just isn’t worth it. It’s no fun. Deadlines are ridiculus. The BAs are sometimes noobie know-nothings. Generating the requirements for a program is one of the most difficult parts to get right and most likely to fail and I’m highly suspicious that we are hiring competent individuals.

For all of this I’m waiting to see. It doesn’t look good at the moment.

Let’s see if I can find November’s posts. Can’t help but write at least 300 words per week.

Sara Rant

Wednesday, December 17th, 2008

This is driving me nuts!!! Work is crazy and I should have been asleep 2 hr ago. But I can’t get this out of my head.

A little history first. Months ago I dated this fantastic girl who turned me down. We became friends and spent a whole lot of time together this summer. Then I said something hurtful. An offhanded comment. A little dig to get a response out of her. She kicks me out of her car and that’s the last I see her. The next day I call and apologize on her voice mail first thing and then in an email.

I thought I knew her. That we were friends.

This was an intensely painful experience. It’s not like I’m a happy person lately, but this just killed me. For a good couple of months at least twice a wk I would come home and cry for an hour or more. Things are better now. I’ve gotten used to the loneliness. Well, as much as I can. The depression is fairly well lifted. The pre-existing unhappiness is still there, but I’m trying to work through it. You should see my copy of Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance.

But I look back and think, “What the fuck was wrong with Sara?”

I understand that I hurt her and she can choose to respond any way she wants. If she told me to “stick it” then fine. Or if she kicked back with her own dig then fine. Or whatever. Instead, she says everything is fine she just can’t put up with me know. And that’s the last I hear. Months of seeing each other 2-3 days a week and then nothing. Nothing.

Of course, I apologize and give her time. Don’t want to be somewhere I’m not wanted. After two weeks of checking email 20 times a day it’s pretty obvious.

See I thought we had talked. Remember how she had gualked that my mom could leave me and my brother and sister. Could have swore I mentioned that I can’t stand to be ignored. It tends to bring up that abandonment thing all over again. I start thinking, “Everyone goes off leaves me.” This is the worst way to end any kind of relationship with me. I would rather someone used my body to put out their cigarettes.

What kind of relationship do you have with someone that can end without a word? Two dates got me an email and certainly she meant more to me than a couple of dates. Strangers. Strangers can meet, talk for a few minutes, and walk away without another word.

All those months and we were strangers. I never would have guessed. Certainly, we weren’t friends, because friends talk to one another; argue or agree. There is some emotional connection that each has to the other. She apparently had no emotions about me.

I feel that women shouldn’t be trusted. Definitely, won’t be acting on an impulse to be open. If there’s the slightest premonition then I should go. And I’m feeling very angry at Sara. Several months of this summer were a waste and as much as I want to say it is all indelibly marred by the ending I can’t quite do it. Some of it was fun.

God, maybe I can get some sleep now. Freakin’ ridiculous.

Books of 2008

Saturday, December 13th, 2008

The year is almost up and I was scanning through my book list. When I finish a book I record the link and date I finished it here. The total is stunning. So far there are 42 this year. A lot of them are audio books. Some are very short. Steve Martin’s book took one day. Others like Atlas Shrugged took over two weeks. It kind of balances out. This doesn’t include re-reads and books that were started and not finished.

Issues with Atlas Shrugged

Wednesday, December 10th, 2008

The people of the world of Atlas Shrugged is split in four. The creative, successful early 1900’s era tycoons; the self-destructive, anti-creative, intelligency and unsuccessful tycoons (moochers); the political, self-interested animals (looters); and the non-descript faceless workers.

The assumption is made that a tycoon is born from one process. That of working, though not born to, the lowest jobs and migrating up the ladder of an organization and becoming the leader or starting his/her own similar organization.

A tycoon is devoted to the quality and the value of his/her product. Making money from cheating their customers is antathetical.

A tycoon might maintain a presence in Washington, but not depend or rely upon government regulations and grants to secure the future of their company. Except for patents and secret processes like how to produce a better steel, which are by definition government grants of exclusivity.

Maslow’s hierarchy of needs is out. Greed is non-existent. Achievement, work, and success are the measure by which all tycoons devote themselves. Sex, clothes, food, peers mean nothing. Though successul tycoons enjoy each other’s company more than anyone else’s.

Confusion and delusion are out. The tycoon knows why he acts and proceeds logically therefrom.

Ego is out. No one achieves money just to accumulate money for the pure satisfaction of their ego.

Characters are clean. There is no mix of moocher, looter, and tycoon within one individual. For instance, someone who believes in a welfare system for the poor or old and who has made vast quantities of money some of it with the help of government regulations.

Selflessness is evil. Action for others and not for the self has only one source – peer pressure. A person acting from their inner voice (she would never use this terminology) could never act for the good of others at the deprivation of oneself.

Such a tycoon would have no problem starting over again. After having their life’s work destroyed they would rebuild it. Age and infirmity are not an issue. These people exist for the joy of producing and customers flock to them automatically. A tycoon who follows this cold, steely passion can’t but help to be successful.

If this is meant to be an illustration of how Russia came to be under a communist dictatorship it fails on a couple of points. Americans aren’t Russians. The spirit of invention, self-reliance, and problem-solving is pervasive and not rare. She fails to threaten industrialist with personal injury or their family. Almost none of them have close family anyway. Perhaps, she did not want to admit the millions who left to die in Siberian prisons. Her heroes are capable of building a hideaway and continue their inventions unnoticed. This is probably possible in Russia, but the difficulty in keeping such a secret and the limited resources available make it unlikely.

They tycoon can conduct all actions within the business equally well; inventor, accountant, filing clerk, CEO,.. The tycoon is the ultimate generalist. There is not even one sentence to the effect that a hero can perform action X, but another hero or another person can do it better. That for the best performance the hero should not perform action X himself.

Many aspects feel likely, though it’s hard to dismiss the unrealistic characters and that calls into question those aspects. Many processes are interest to explore: the conversion of democracy into tyranny of the minority (looters) in the name of the faceless populous; the breaking down of “greed is good” viewpoint; the dissolution of the industrial structures around the country; the corruption of government to benefit certain companies at the detriment to other and the arguements against competition are very familiar today; an emergency that becomes permanent; and the shift of the path of success for a company from the relationship between consumer/product to bribes/committees.

I like the idea of the Sanction of the Victim. The victims allow themselves to be taken advantage of and abused by the tyranny of the minority. This has the ring of truth. Why does America have higher wages and benefits than most companies? Because we have collectively agreed to a higher standard of compensation. When you think about it; it’s rather ghastly that the individuals who enjoy the fruits of labor unions routinely seek to find workers who have not collectively agreed to a higher standard and that they do this ostensibly in the name of providing cheaper products and services to themselves and other members of the better paid society.

The story is based on the idea that all the creative energies are contained within a relatively small portion of society and if those members went on strike and left quietly that society would slowly dissolve behind the efforts of the incompetent, political know-nothings. In order to accept this idea, you have to believe that very few people are creative and that such unique people are good at all aspects of their work. I find this highly implausible.

The end of the book is utter bullshit. The last of the tycoons pull out to a hidden, isolated, unknown valley in Colorado and wait out the complete destruction of civilization so that they can emerge and rebuild it “from scratch”.

One thing very valuable to take away from Ayn Rand’s style is are very lengthy descriptions. This lady can spend three long paragraphs describe the half second glance between two characters. The detail can be heavily over done when you know what’s coming and just want the plot to move along. Still it give a very clear idea. However, I’ve taken note of her style and will attempt to use it more often.

Dahon Mu P24

Tuesday, December 9th, 2008

I’ve been over the specs, price points, and customization options for a quality folding bike that could handle touring. The kind of touring I have in mind are the 2 day unloaded variety, though a loaded 5 day is tempting. Lack of gears in the cheaper models is the primary constraint. Lots of gears indicate a much more expensive bike, except for Multons, Bromptons and a few others.

Dahon seems like the clear choice. You can get a Mu P24 2008 for $700 right now and a 2009 with identical specs for $770. The next closest is over $1000. I also considered a Mu P8 for $500 and adding a SRAM DualDrive like the P24. That would be $200 for the SRAM without installation. A Vitesse D7 is also very tempting.

These <$500 folding bikes seem like a really good deal. I’m surprised they don’t get more attention.

Bike Friday makes a folding touring tandem bike. Very unusual. They have quite a following. One of the coolest features is that the luggage box they sell converts to a trailer. So, you fly to your destination, unpack your bike, stow your luggage in the empty box, and ride off. One of the companies would be a really excellent sponsor for the Amazing Race.

If I were really investing in this the Bike Friday for $400 more would be worth it. Knowing my taciturn focus and unpredictable attention span $700 is a bit above the limit.

Voyeirism vs Creation as a Path to Understanding

Monday, December 8th, 2008

It seems we are getting to a stage of understanding biology, which values all the aspects of the entity. ie there is not trash or useless portions of DNA. They are just not understood yet. I could see this technique spreading to other areas of science though nothing is a intent focused as an organism.

The next step would be in creating organisms ourselves. We can already do this with viruses and by injecting prepared DNA strands into prepared cells. Only by understanding what choices are available; by asking how would I do make the organism perform X (protect from disease, construct a flagella, reproduce,..); are we able to really understand the organism.

Within each decision are hundreds or unchosen paths. There is usually a reason for choosing and not_choosing them. Much more learning is contained within the empty design decisions than the fullfilled ones.

Folding Bicycles

Saturday, December 6th, 2008

It’s Christmas time and I’m planning the coming years bike activities. This year I was left with 6 days of vacation days I had to use or lose. That could have been a bike trip; a wk in Texas, New Mexico, Oklahoma, and the other surrounding states. I’m thinking of that, the Seattle trip, and of getting a new bike. The Volpe is great. Though I wish it were a little longer to stretch my back out. Using it as a commuter bike made me extremely nervous about theft. That’s $1000 held by a $40 lock.

The answer might be a folding bike. These have 16″ or 20″ wheels and fold back on themselves to make an easily stowable, carriable package. Most fit in an oversized suitcase and under a desk at work. They can be carried on trains and buses without the necessity of a luggage rack.

Commuters are the target market. So, most of them have fenders, racks, chain guards, sealed gears, and straight handlebars. A few of them are designed for the Traveling Tourer. There’s a lot of overlap between the groups, but the commuter models have 1-8 gears and the Tourers have 16-24.

After a few hours of combing through the Internet, Crazy Guy on a Bike, and Wordpress blogs, the table below sums it up. British Bromptons are the top end starting at $1400. Bike Fridays are next at $900+. These are custom built and a reasonably equipped bike is $1100. Then it overlaps quite a bit. Probably, Dahon, Airnimal, Montague, and Giant. For a cheap piece of crap or the Walmart sector of folding bikes Citizen Bike is an online company with three models $160-$290.

I think that the Dahon Mu P24 at $700 is the likely one. With a used Bike Friday or Dahon Speed TR coming second. Both at $1000 or so. The Dahon Vitesse D7HG looks like an excellent bike for commuting. If this were my sole goal that would be my choice. Gears are sealed in an an internal hum, chainguard, front wheel dynamo and $600.

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Update:
After so more research I discovered that the way Mu P24 gets 24 gears is a little surprising. It uses a combination internal geared hub and chain rings called a SRAM DualDrive. There is one shifter for all 24 gears and no front derailleur at all. The chain rings are customizable to bring in more mountainous gearing. Useful, since you can’t stand up on a folding bicycle without risk of bending it in half.

Austin Bike Tour

Saturday, December 6th, 2008

This trip is tempting. I need something significant to shoot for early in order to make the Seattle to Portland (100 mi X 2 dy) in July. May would be better. Training to 40-50 mi days in March sounds challenging.

April 4(Sat.)-10(Fri.)
60 miles/day
Fully Supported
Camping
Riding on country roads and State Parks
40 people
Layover day in the middle
Catered $1100